Nicolesworld the world according to Nicole

Her Name Was Steven

2010-03-12T08:57:00.001-05:00

This is a must see this is the Story of a TG man to woman I am asking for you to watch this

duncan coffee

2009-12-28T14:56:00.001-05:00

Good GG Friends

2009-12-20T07:46:00.001-05:00

I am so glad that I have made some good GG Friends it is important for me that I have GGs as friends you know it is hard to explain how one feels when they are TG the body says one thing when the Spirit Soul and heart says another, But when your befriended by a GG it validates you as a woman and it makes you feel like you fit in because as in the present body you don't fit in. In 50 years of life I have really never fit in as a (Man) the things that "normal"men do and like just have not appealed to me like fishing, hunting . doing the fantasy foot ball thing those things just have never made since to me , but give me a craft club with women and I am right at home or a day out shopping and a night out with the girls and I as happy as can be .I would like to make more friends who are GGs because I think only women can understand women and if your a GG then your more understanding and caring.
Nicole White

Tired of Living a Lie

2009-12-16T11:09:00.002-05:00

I am so F ing tired of living a lie I am all woman Spirit Soul and Mind and I want to be treated as such and taken seriously that I am a real woman I dream as a woman I think as a woman I feel as a woman thus I am all woman and I have known this since the age of 6 I wanted barbies I wanted to play house I wanted pink things I loved the touch of silk and satin and the smell of perfume on myself and wanted to wear a prom dress and be the homecoming queen and wanted to be the picture perfect bride I just wanted to be who I was on the inside not the lie on the outside and now I know this is my cross to carry though my life I just want to be Nicole A White and be the H#@@ who I am.

2009-08-08T10:34:00.001-04:00

Myspace Comments

Still Dreaming

2009-08-03T08:47:00.002-04:00

I am still dreaming of becoming the Person I am on the inside and that person is a loving woman she is s sensitive and caring and I want to give myself to the woman I love dearly she loves to shop and she likes to be held by another woman she is a person who wants to help others see How important that they are in life and wants to show others that they are loved she loves satin, silk, and lace. she loves yard sales and long drives thorugh the country side and spending the day in the mall and she loves to go to the park and have picnicks on a large Blanket and I am still dreaming for the day I can show her to the whole wide world and put aside the person she is not and walk away so I dream on,

More on the mountan

2009-05-03T12:31:00.001-04:00

Pine Mountain

I got a chance to get out and about this past Tuesday and mind you I had a ball I took some pics while on this outing it was a warm not to hot day so I went sleeveless I hope you like the pics.

_______,

I hope you like the pics.
Nicole White

2009-05-03T09:58:00.003-04:00

I Finally got out this pass week I went to the mountains and I had a great time and I took a few pics the sun felt good on my sleeveless shoulders and the wind blew through my hair and its great to be out in the world as I am all woman.
Nicole White

2009-05-03T09:57:00.001-04:00

This is how I feel

2009-03-08T10:10:00.001-04:00

I saw this and I thought of how I really feel and what I really think.

Comments - Graphics - Layouts - Photobucket

this is me

2009-03-08T10:07:00.001-04:00

Comments - Graphics - Layouts - Photobucket

2009-02-22T09:27:00.002-05:00

An Update on Nicole

2009-02-08T12:03:00.000-05:00

As I write this I hope that I make this clear I do believe I am bi gendered there is a side of me that screams WOMAN and there is a part of me that wants to still be daddy and husband that say man as you will notice that I wrote woman in a bigger font because the woman side of me is more predominate it is what I think about more it is what I am more comfortable with I feel more like a woman than I do a man and I think more like a woman the woman in me is so confined ,so restrained so from now on I am not going to let that part of me be held back I may be looked down on by my family I may even be shunned by them and my (so called Friends) but as one of my cousins said it is more important to not live a lie than it is to live a lie and not be your self so if my family sees me in passing I will not turn and run if my so called friends see me in passing I will not turn and run but I will face them face to face and say you are you and I am me and this is what I am so live with it and I am at the point of coming out to my pastor and there is a part of me that is not looking forward to that or that day but I know that day is coming soon I know its been a while since I last made a post so I thought I would let you know where I am in my journey and the journey is long and hard but I am Woman enough for it
Nicole White

Whats on my mind

2009-01-13T08:26:00.000-05:00

what I think when I look at women

when I look at other women I dont do it to stare I do it wishfuly hoping I looked just like them and when I see what they are wearing I wished some times I was wearing it too when you live in a roll of the wrong gender it sucks.For now I will just look and hope it is My plot in life to do it for now.

Dearest Julie Nicole

wits end

2009-01-13T08:24:00.001-05:00

Wits End

Wits End

I have come to a conclusion I am and always will be transgender I am trapped in the wrong body so I have made a decision I am going to be who and what I am ( A Woman) it does not matter what is between the legs it matters what is in my heart and my brain I know this may effect some in my family but like one cousin said to me "life is to short to live a lie" and like Popeye said "me is what me is"

Nicole

More of My Thoughts

2009-01-13T08:23:00.001-05:00

Just a note about some feelings

Just how do I begin this blog entry with every thought I have it is the thoughts of a woman the body says one thing but the brain is far away from where the body is I feel as if I have been cheated out of a lot of things every thing from my first period to my debutant ball to my sweet 16 and my wedding day in a long white dress in every way I feel like a woman I never really made any guy friends like most guys do but through my life I have made a lot of girl friends oh I missed one thing I missed having babies I just thought I would share my thoughts on my life.

A Study Shows

2009-01-13T08:20:00.001-05:00

You Need to read this one

New study confirms probable genetic cause for classic transsexuality
Posted by catkisser under transfeminism, transgender, transsexual, women of transsexual history

A study released yesterday has linked genetics to classic transsexuality. http://www.cosmosmagazine.com/news/2275/gene-linked-transsexuality

The ink isn't even dry on this before the TG community has started trying to pick it apart but let's be realistic here. The Danish BSTc studies, the recent German studies confirming olfactory pheromone sensitivity in transsexual women falling within gendered (female) norms, the repeated several times studies on the sex specific cognitive function also confirming the truth behind, at least for male to female classic transsexuals, the truth that they have a neurologically female central nervous system and the "markers" for determining physiological different responses to estrogen in classic transsexual women and AGs pretty much confirm this is true. In 15+ years of studies now not a single study has weighed in on the psychological causality that has been clung to fiercely by those who would demonize transsexuality as a "choice". That's right, not one single study for this and all the studies confirming the neurological model.

It's pretty much official now……..classic transsexuality is a neurological intersexed condition. No doubt we will later find it's more than genetic, that other factors can also cause the pre-natal neurological development to be in opposition to the physical sex traits, but this pretty much puts the last nail in the coffin for the choice and it's a psychological condition crowd. It also pretty much confirms the dreaded and hated HBS basic contention.

Just what is this basic HBS contention that is so hated? It is simply that classic transsexuality is a neurological intersexed condition. That's it, thats the basic tenant of HBS. The theory goes on to talk about onset of personal knowledge of gender variance, physiological indicators, in short, define classic transsexuality in the terms that became fairly well understood prior to the TG spectrum crowd shouting it down. Please note, surgery is not addressed although it is considered a given that someone with a neurology totally at odds with their own body with eventually seek the maximum amount of correction to their bodies possible. The constant charges of post op elitism comes from the minds of those who blindly oppose the scientific reality "on the ground", not those of us who thoughtfully examined the issues and came to the conclusion the classic transsexuality is almost certainly physiological in origin. The theory is not a "transier than thou" position, although some mavericks take it to that point. It does not, in a pure, non self defense mode, define transgenders other than to draw the clear distinction based on the very "markers" that define the condition. In my own blog entry at http://radicalbitch.wordpress.com/2008/10/27/2008/02/18/towards-trans-sanity I lay out the markers, the historic conditions that lead researchers astray in the past and the sociological mistakes many of today's researchers make in opposing the physical causality model.

What this means politically is enormous. All discussions aside on whether someone born transsexual wishes to be seen as disabled, the Americans with Disabilities Act exemption for transsexuality under the Act is quite, quite specific. It exempts transsexuality not from physical causes. That's right, this study just gave American transsexuals the keys to the civil rights kingdom. One, just one, high profile win in a Federal Court using this study would immediately grant full civil rights protections to every single transsexual in the US under the ADA. Trans-activists, please think this time before you screw this up.

The Real Me

2009-01-13T08:19:00.001-05:00

The Real Me

I am no longer going to hide my transsexuality I am what I am I am a woman at heart and mind and soul all of what I am screams woman I know I may not be accepted by some I may be shunned by others but right now I don't give a dang what others might think being out for the past 2 days has made me now know this is what I want to be and sure I may have gotten some looks but right now I don't care.
Miss Nicole White

Poll

2009-01-11T22:06:00.000-05:00

What would you do with a Transsexaul
Run From them
Stare at them
Talk to them
Hug them
Try to get to home plate
Ask them to marry you

(View Results)

Create a MySpace Poll

Here is a link for you

2009-01-10T21:28:00.000-05:00

This link has tons of info so go check it out
http://www.gires.org.uk/
Nicole

must see 2

2009-01-06T15:10:00.001-05:00

must see

2009-01-06T05:05:00.001-05:00

You Tube

2009-01-03T16:33:00.001-05:00

I want all my freinds to go to watch my first and to date my only video .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b5Wj-21ORXg

Nicole White

A Persoal letter

2008-12-23T07:44:00.002-05:00

This may seem to be a letter to some to be a little too personal but I want to share it with you all
this is a letter I sent to all my relatives.

To Whom it may concern.
This is just a note to all of my family member as some of you may have known and for some of you may not have known I have been dealing with a lot of things in my 48 years of life. Approximately 4 years ago I attempted to commit suicide I felt as if I was a failure as a person, as a husband and mostly as a father, me and my wife attended counseling at the pastoral institute and during that time I had to bring some things out to my wife and at the time she was shocked but came to realize how deep my personal problems had become, shortly after that happened my daughter was molested by a 15 year old boy at the age of 9 we have gone through a lot with her distrust of boys and she asked why was I going through therapy with momma then we made a disecion to tell her why because she begged to know so me and the wife decided to tell her she had a great understanding of my life’s deepest issues . Now I bring it to all of you as of Friday April the 4th 2008 I am out of the closet as a Transgendered person so if I see you while I am out from now on if you find it embarrassing I will understand .I have decided to live for me and my family of 4 and no one else . And if you ask am I gay by no means I AM NOT GAYYY I am just in touch with my feminine side and while out en femme I will be using the name Julie Nicole White I will not use my given last name as not to further your embarrassment . Some of you will now further disown me some will turn your backs on me some will tolerate me some will love me any way but as of now I am going to be me.
(Julie Nicole White)

Church

2008-11-05T20:50:00.001-05:00

church
Well I attenended church today for the first time since I made my life changing desision I was standing there singing whit my female voice and the only who heard it was God and the singing was so easy to me because it was who I am and what I am but I long for the day that all of this can be out and in the open so I dont have to hide how I feel and that is as a woman when that happeneds I will forever be so glad.
Dearest Julie Nicole

What I think when I look at a woman

2008-11-05T20:48:00.000-05:00

what I think when I look at women
when I look at other women I dont do it to stare I do it wishfuly hoping I looked just like them and when I see what they are wearing I wished some times I was wearing it too when you live in a roll of the wrong gender it sucks.For now I will just look and hope it is My plot in life to do it for now.
Dearest Julie Nicole

Wits End

2008-11-05T20:44:00.000-05:00

Wits End
Wits End
I have come to a conclusion I am and always will be transgender I am trapped in the wrong body so I have made a decision I am going to be who and what I am ( A Woman) it does not matter what is between the legs it matters what is in my heart and my brain I know this may effect some in my family but like one cousin said to me "life is to short to live a lie" and like Popeye said "me is what me is"
Nicole

Just a thought

2008-11-05T20:42:00.001-05:00

Just a note about some feelings
Just how do I begin this blog entry with every thought I have it is the thoughts of a woman the body says one thing but the brain is far away from where the body is I feel as if I have been cheated out of a lot of things every thing from my first period to my debutant ball to my sweet 16 and my wedding day in a long white dress in every way I feel like a woman I never really made any guy friends like most guys do but through my life I have made a lot of girl friends oh I missed one thing I missed having babies I just thought I would share my thoughts on my life.

The Real Me

2008-11-05T20:41:00.001-05:00

The Real Me
I am no longer going to hide my transsexuality I am what I am I am a woman at heart and mind and soul all of what I am screams woman I know I may not be accepted by some I may be shunned by others but right now I don't give a dang what others might think being out for the past 2 days has made me now know this is what I want to be and sure I may have gotten some looks but right now I don't care.

Please Read

2008-11-05T20:37:00.000-05:00

Sunday, October 26, 2008
You Need to read this one
New study confirms probable genetic cause for classic transsexualityPosted by catkisser under transfeminism, transgender, transsexual, women of transsexual history
A study released yesterday has linked genetics to classic transsexuality. http://www.cosmosmagazine.com/news/2275/gene-linked-transsexuality
The ink isn't even dry on this before the TG community has started trying to pick it apart but let's be realistic here. The Danish BSTc studies, the recent German studies confirming olfactory pheromone sensitivity in transsexual women falling within gendered (female) norms, the repeated several times studies on the sex specific cognitive function also confirming the truth behind, at least for male to female classic transsexuals, the truth that they have a neurologically female central nervous system and the "markers" for determining physiological different responses to estrogen in classic transsexual women and AGs pretty much confirm this is true. In 15+ years of studies now not a single study has weighed in on the psychological causality that has been clung to fiercely by those who would demonize transsexuality as a "choice". That's right, not one single study for this and all the studies confirming the neurological model.
It's pretty much official now……..classic transsexuality is a neurological intersexed condition. No doubt we will later find it's more than genetic, that other factors can also cause the pre-natal neurological development to be in opposition to the physical sex traits, but this pretty much puts the last nail in the coffin for the choice and it's a psychological condition crowd. It also pretty much confirms the dreaded and hated HBS basic contention.
Just what is this basic HBS contention that is so hated? It is simply that classic transsexuality is a neurological intersexed condition. That's it, thats the basic tenant of HBS. The theory goes on to talk about onset of personal knowledge of gender variance, physiological indicators, in short, define classic transsexuality in the terms that became fairly well understood prior to the TG spectrum crowd shouting it down. Please note, surgery is not addressed although it is considered a given that someone with a neurology totally at odds with their own body with eventually seek the maximum amount of correction to their bodies possible. The constant charges of post op elitism comes from the minds of those who blindly oppose the scientific reality "on the ground", not those of us who thoughtfully examined the issues and came to the conclusion the classic transsexuality is almost certainly physiological in origin. The theory is not a "transier than thou" position, although some mavericks take it to that point. It does not, in a pure, non self defense mode, define transgenders other than to draw the clear distinction based on the very "markers" that define the condition. In my own blog entry at http://radicalbitch.wordpress.com/2008/10/27/2008/02/18/towards-trans-sanity I lay out the markers, the historic conditions that lead researchers astray in the past and the sociological mistakes many of today's researchers make in opposing the physical causality model.
What this means politically is enormous. All discussions aside on whether someone born transsexual wishes to be seen as disabled, the Americans with Disabilities Act exemption for transsexuality under the Act is quite, quite specific. It exempts transsexuality not from physical causes. That's right, this study just gave American transsexuals the keys to the civil rights kingdom. One, just one, high profile win in a Federal Court using this study would immediately grant full civil rights protections to every single transsexual in the US under the ADA. Trans-activists, please think this time before you screw this up.